Mother never told me there'd be days like these! |
Joking aside, last night was awful. I didn’t sleep a wink. I had to physically get up twice because my entire body was drenched. It’s unlike anything I have every experienced before. Lack of sleep leading to exhaustion, combined with some unexpected anxiety, had me sick to my stomach all morning.
As a result, I missed my morning appointment and I have spent the day watching movies. I don’t have an appetite
and I have been "flashing" on and off all day. I don’t have a fever but it’s
late in the day and I am still unable to sleep.
I'm lethargic, irritable, as well as emotional. I can feel it. I hate it and I just want it to stop!
I'm lethargic, irritable, as well as emotional. I can feel it. I hate it and I just want it to stop!
I haven’t really researched what is going to happen to my
body over the next couple of years because let’s face it; I don’t feel middle
aged, and I certainly don’t act it. Today has been a bit of a wake-up call telling me that this is something that is officially knocking at my door and I most definitely have zero control over it.
Truth? This morning I was actually wondering if my summer of self-discovery in 2012 was
just my body ramping up in preparation to start shutting down. The thought of
that does worry me. I know I am not ready, but if I am honest with myself, I know over the last year there have been certain subtle changes. There have been some physical changes as well as some changes in mindset. All I suspect are part of the process. I guess I best start reading to make it as bearable as possible.
I watched four movies while tucked into the love seat at the end of the bed today. Hope Springs is about a couple that go into marriage counselling. Something's Gotta Give is about finding love later in life. And Something to Talk About is about marriage in fidelity and how a couple over comes it. The last was 40 Year Old Virgin.
The final had the greatest impact on me from where I am at this very point in my life. Poor Steve Carell. He waited an entire 40 years to get laid; only to marry someone and he's a minute and a half away from a mid-life crisis, which is to be directly followed my menopause. AND she made his sell all his shit on EBay!
POOR Bastard! That movie isn't a comedy. It could very well be the single biggest tragedy of this century.
Just keepin' it real Peeps...
I watched four movies while tucked into the love seat at the end of the bed today. Hope Springs is about a couple that go into marriage counselling. Something's Gotta Give is about finding love later in life. And Something to Talk About is about marriage in fidelity and how a couple over comes it. The last was 40 Year Old Virgin.
The final had the greatest impact on me from where I am at this very point in my life. Poor Steve Carell. He waited an entire 40 years to get laid; only to marry someone and he's a minute and a half away from a mid-life crisis, which is to be directly followed my menopause. AND she made his sell all his shit on EBay!
POOR Bastard! That movie isn't a comedy. It could very well be the single biggest tragedy of this century.
Just keepin' it real Peeps...
Sorry about the hot flashes and sleepless nights. It sucks to get old. On the plus side, those are all pretty awesome movies. I loved Hope Springs... Meryl Streep was just a big old jar of awesome sauce.
ReplyDeleteNow, I have no idea how old you are and you certainly don't look anywhere near as old as me, but there IS another big plus side to middle age: at the Bracebridge Shopper's Drug Mart the Senior's Discount starts at age 50!!!!!! So exciting!!!!
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