My smiling sister embracing cottage life whilst enjoying a drink with our dad. TAKEN: AUGUST 9th, |
She would call me to regularly check in. She was the only one I felt comfortable talking to about the gravity of the situation at hand. Everyone else was kept at a distance. During that time she was unconditionally supportive, and always started our calls with the same four words... "How are you doing?"
Completely unprepared for the emotions swirling at what the many doctors were telling me, she kept me calm. She made me laugh. She helped me focus on the day to day, not on the possibility of what may ultimately transpire.
I don't know if anyone reading this can appreciate just how fragile one's mental health can be during such trying times, but I can confirm that the last few months have tested mine to its limit.
Even now, in a conscious effort to self preserve, I no longer want to be around people. I don't want to discuss what has happened and the journey we are on, as my eyes immediately fill with tears.
It is like I am transitioning from a full blown extrovert, to a comfortable introvert, hanging out in the bathtub with a blanket over my head; sipping a warm bowl of gravy from a ladle.
That said, my sister visiting offered me a sense of calm and a true feeling of comfort better than any gravy ladle ever could.
No pressure, zero bullshit. I worked upstairs in my office at the cottage, and she kept herself busy with whatever leftover internet bandwidth I didn't utilize.
I loved hearing the sound of her voice telling the dogs that she was 'NOT going to throw the football in the lake again', probably because it saved me the energy of saying it; about a hundred times a day.
When I dropped her off at home after our nine days together, we gave each other a big hug. As I headed to the door she hollered, "..love ya." To which I responded with "I love you too."
Then, I immediately said, "see you back at the cottage sooner than later." Her last visit was around the spring of 2008.
Which in my opinion, is solid statistical proof, why 4 out of 5 full blown homebody's never come to visit me.
My sister being the one, that was simply pushed over the edge by a heat wave and the cottage country aromatic allure, of three wet dogs...trying to share her bed!
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Lovely tribute to your sister. I hope you are building back resilience, and hope Tony is doing well.
ReplyDeleteIt was nice to have her visit. Tony is doing better than anyone expected. We head to the stroke clinic next month, which should offer us some 'next steps' of direction.
ReplyDeleteFamily support ❤️ ❤️
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